After a strong start, Nicky stumbles a bit in this installment: the emotions she IS feeling are at war with the ones she WANTS to feel, or thinks that she should be feeling. Ryan is far more demanding and controlling in this story, pushing for a commitment from Nicky but there are several roadblocks happening.
Pamela Taeuffer gives us an honest yet scattered portrayal of Nicky – all over the place as her own emotional connection with Ryan is scaring her. Her emotions and memories are all over the place: remembering past traumas, worrying about taking a chance that may end up with her being abandoned again, and her still questionable connection with Jerry, who, although he is closer in age and knows some of her history, isn’t necessarily mature enough to help her walk through her issues.
What I found is though emotionally the story rings very true, there is some peculiar and oddly styled writing that is both distracting and confusing. Well it may be that the author is trying to insert some of Nicky’s own thought processes into the story, and she is, most decidedly, all over the place; there was a disparity between who was speaking, dialog was often stilted, and there were several places where I just had to read back to see ‘who best’ fit the previous sentences.
Unfortunately, that just didn’t work for me – and while I see Nicky as quite unfocused and unsure, having major issues with her self-esteem and not trusting in herself enough to make a true decision, I wanted SOME decision made that she stuck to. Whether or not she believed wholeheartedly in the choice, I desperately needed her to make one. I wasn’t enamored with this installment, but I am hooked and need to know if Nicky finds some sort of resolution.
Title: Fire Heart
Author: Pamela Taeuffer
Genre: Contemporary Romance, Dark-theme
Published by: Self-Published
Source: Publisher via NetGalley
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There are times in our lives when we encounter love so profound, so powerful, that the life you've always planned for gets interrupted by the love you've desperately longed for. Such is the case for 18 year old Nicky Young. High school is officially over, and she has been planning to attend Stanford, but the very hot and very desirable Goliath baseball star, Ryan Tilton, has other ideas.
As their relationship begins to heat up, Ryan wants her to commit to him. Nicky is wanting him, too, but suspicious of his intentions. Especially when ex-lovers keep showing up! How can she commit herself to Ryan when she is so close to the independence she has longed for ever since she was a young girl?
As they become more and more intimate, childhood memories of being abused by her father and her sister's rape at age 14, feelings of deep shame come pouring through Nicky's mind. She desperately wants to open her heart but cannot live through the pain of being abandoned again.
What lengths will she go to, to stay strong when what she really craves at the deepest levels of her being, is standing right in from of her?
A copy of this title was provided via Publisher via NetGalley for purpose of honest review. I was not compensated for this review: all conclusions are my own responsibility.